Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 26: The Big Finish

We made it! Today is Thanksgiving. We got through yet another November of me writing about things I'm grateful for. Has it gotten old yet?

Thank you to everyone who stuck it out and read these, even the boring ones. It's always nice to be able to share my thoughts and feelings with those who care about me. It makes me feel like I'm connecting with people, even if they're far away.

For today's grand finale, I'm going to list twenty-six things I'm grateful for, in no particular order. It's kind of like at a fireworks show when they start off with one or two beautiful fireworks at a time, then finish the whole thing by lighting up all the ones they have left and filling the sky. It's a bit chaotic, and more than a little noisy, but it gives one heckuva finish.

1 - I'm thankful to live in a country that has a holiday set aside to specifically celebrate gratitude, even if it's often lost in the rush to get to Christmas. I know we're not the only country that has a Thanksgiving, but most countries don't. And while gratitude should ideally be practiced year-round, it's nice to have an annual reminder to count our blessings.

2 - I'm thankful for my Facebook friends. All of them are also real-life friends and family, but the majority of them live too far away to visit very often (if ever). It's great that we can still keep in touch, and I appreciate the love and support I get from those friends.

3 - I'm grateful that our dinner today turned out so great! We just cooked a turkey breast, rather than a whole turkey, since it's just the three of us. I'd never done it before, so I was nervous, but the turkey was super delicious. And I don't even usually like turkey! And Evie peeled and mashed the potatoes, which were awesome. We also had green bean casserole, rolls, and stuffing. And I got it all onto the table at almost the same time! It was truly a feat never before seen in the Fifield home (ours, at least).

4 - I'm thankful for the relationship I have with my daughter. While we were cooking today, she was singing "fork, fork, fork, fork-fork..." to the tune of "Row, Row, Row Your Boat," while I was chiming in with rhythmic "fork, fork, forks," in the background. It was absurd and delightful, and went on for a much longer time than was necessary. But that's just how we roll. And I love it!

5 - I'm grateful I got to do silly gratitude napkins for Evie's school lunches this month. It was such a fun challenge, and I really got my creative juices flowing. Some of my favorites were, "I'm thankful that T-Rexes didn't have tiny hind legs like a wiener dog," "I'm grateful that pancakes aren't carnivorous," and "I'm thankful that I've never given a monkey reason to throw poo at me... yet."

6 - I'm grateful for Ben's arms. They're my favorite. I also appreciate his broad shoulders. And his face. And "[his] legs, and right where [his] legs meet [his] back. That - actually that whole area. That and... and above it." All of him, really.

7 - I'm thankful that we get to put up our Christmas decorations tomorrow! Yay!

8 - I'm thankful for warm pajamas and fuzzy socks. It doesn't get that cold here, but it's definitely cold enough to give me just cause to snuggle down in my warmest, comfiest clothing.

9 - I'm thankful for my musical ability. I love singing, and being able to accompany myself on the piano when I sing makes it that much better. Plus I'm able to put those talents to good use, anytime someone needs a pianist at church, or someone to sing for a ward party or sacrament meeting. And it's one of my great joys to be able to perform in musical theater from time to time, especially when I get to perform with my equally-musically-talented husband! My musical talents are a gift that I will be eternally grateful for.

10 - I'm grateful for Evie's teachers. She's had such wonderful teachers throughout her years of school, and I feel certain that the trend will continue.

11 - I'm also grateful for all the teachers I know outside of Evie's personal education experiences. I'm blessed to have several in my family, and many more among my friends. They're some of the best, most selfless people in the world, and they deserve so much more than they earn. Hopefully they're getting extra blessings from Heavenly Father to make up for it. I'm sure He's grateful that they take such loving care of so many of His children.

12 - I'm grateful for my own education. Without it, I doubt I would have such a passion for books. I'd have a much harder time dealing with our bills and budgets. I'd be a terrible scorekeeper when we play Farkle. I wouldn't be able to play a piano, or sing nearly as well as I do. I wouldn't know how to explain to Evie what "high blood pressure" is. I wouldn't have an appreciation for the things people have dealt with in the past, or been able to learn from their mistakes. I certainly wouldn't be writing this blog. Education is such a gift. Not that I'll ever be able to convince my daughter of that fact...

13 - I'm thankful for our Tivo. Take that, commercials! Ain't nobody got time for that!

14 - I'm thankful to be more than halfway done with this list!

15 - I'm grateful that Ben doesn't have to be gone nearly as much now as he did when we were at Dyess AFB. He was literally gone at least half the time we lived there. It was awful. I'm strong enough to handle things at home on my own when he can't be here, but that doesn't mean I like doing it. Having him home is vastly superior. 

16 - I'm thankful for chocolate. In the Harry Potter books, they use it to help students feel better when they're in shock. It totally makes sense to me. Why don't they stock chocolate in more doctor's offices and hospitals?

17 - I'm grateful that Evie enjoys hearing me read out loud. I love reading to her, and I love how excited she gets about the books. I mean, just look at her Fablehaven birthday party, and her Hermione Granger Halloween costume! It's awesome.

18 - I'm grateful for uplifting news stories that stand as evidence that the human race is a pretty decent lot. It makes me happy to see that not all the news on TV and the internet is bad these days. That kind of thing can really make you cynical. Paying attention to the positive stories, however, helps you realize that people aren't so bad after all. 

19 - I'm thankful for friends who are just as insane as me, and who are willing to prove it through crazy antics. They're the ones who not only support me when I'm doing something weird, they're jumping right in and doing that weird stuff with me. They make me laugh, and they're always there for me when I need a friend. They bring me incredible joy.

      Juleigh, basically. I'm thankful for Juleigh. She's the one friend that I've ever had with whom I felt I could truly, fully be myself. I miss her every single day. 

20 - I'm thankful for chocolate-peanut butter ice cream. 

21 - I'm grateful that I can look up fantastic recipes online anytime I wonder how to make something. It's all right there! One Google search, and I can find a plethora of recipes. So many options! Which, of course, means I can be picky about which one I choose. It's great!

22 - I'm grateful that I have a personal relationship with God. I know who I am, I know why I'm here, and I know that I have value. I know He loves me. I know He's personally involved in my life. I have so much peace and joy that comes from that knowledge. 

23 - I'm thankful for my body. It's not perfect according to the world's standards, but I've realized lately that I'm perfectly okay with that. As long as I'm taking care of it (which I am), it's perfect enough. I'm happy with who I am and how I look. I'm comfortable in my own skin. That hasn't always been the case, and I'm so grateful that I finally can appreciate it for the miraculous gift it is.             My husband thinks it's pretty great, too. And if I like it, and he likes it, who else do I really need to impress???

24 - I'm thankful to have a plethora of extended family members and in-laws! I know that I will never be without family, and that Ben and Evie won't, either. No matter what happens to me, or to Ben, or to Evie, we will always have a loving support system to help us get through anything. That is such a gift. 

25 - I'm grateful to be an American. I've been to several foreign countries, and I have to say, this is absolutely the best country in the world. It's far from perfect, but we have so much more freedom and privilege than other places. Most of us don't even realize how completely blessed we are. Take my word for it - we are crazy lucky to be Americans. 

26 - I'm thankful that I'm more and more able to have an attitude of gratitude in everyday life! It takes effort, and practice, but it's something I'm learning. And I think I'm getting better at it. It's certainly helped me to see the world, and my life, in a more positive light. There's so much beauty all around us, if only we're willing to look for it. 

That's it for my gratitude posts for this year. But like Ah-nold, "I'll be back!"

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 25: Isn't It About... Time?

Sharp, but not sneaky.

I got to spend a shocking amount of good quality time with my family today.

I say, "shocking," because normally Ben would sleep throughout most of the day. Today, though, he only slept a few hours before waking up to deal with schedules and arrangements so he can be in Forever Plaid. The director said there are a few more things to finalize and work out before they can commit to moving forward with the show, but once they work all that out, Ben has a part waiting for him.

So Ben didn't get much sleep today, but he was in an exceptionally good mood because of the upcoming chance to perform again (which I totally understand - it's like a drug! It's euphoric!), And Evie and I were here pretty much all day, playing video games and hanging out, so once Ben was done napping, we all got to do stuff together.

I wonder which
expansion this is from?

We played some Paper Mario, then watched a couple of superhero TV shows (because we're nerdy like that). Then we played a few rounds of Munchkin. It was Evie's first ever time playing, but we figured she's old enough now. And sure enough, she won the second game! Granted, I let her win, just a little, by not throwing everything I had at her to prevent it. But it was either her or Ben, because he was also one monster away from winning, so my parental instincts sided with Evie.

By the time we were done playing together, it was time for Evie to shower and get to bed. We played the whole day away. It was awesome.

That's my favorite thing, and my strongest love language: spending quality time with the people I love. Nothing makes me happier.

It was the perfect way to spend the day before Thanksgiving. :)

Admit it - you're intrigued!

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 24: The Best Medicine

Today, I'm thankful for all the people in my life who make me laugh so hard that I risk shooting liquids out of my nose.

You know who you are.

Here are some of the people (and pictures) that make me laugh every time I see them:

If laughter is the best medicine, I may just live forever. :)

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 23: Vivid Hallucinations

This meme has been making the rounds lately, and I find it utterly delightful. 

I always knew I was probably crazy. And I've always loved reading. So it sounds about right that this hobby of mine involves intense, hours-long hallucinations that make me laugh, cry, and wish I could live in a fictional universe. 

Some teenage girls daydream about boy bands and handsome movie stars. I had crushes on literary characters.

I still do, actually. Peeta Mellark, if he were a real person, could potentially steal me away from Ben. (The book version, of course, not the movie one.) Luckily for Ben, Peeta is a fictional character.

Lucky for Ben, sad for all the ladies in the world whose hearts Peeta has stolen.

My favorite books typically fall into the fantasy genre. I've read and enjoyed epic fantasy, modern fantasy, dystopian fantasy, sci-fi/fantasy blends, reimagined fairy tales, satirical fantasy, young adult and children's fantasy, etc. Pretty much all of the above.

The only thing I don't like is when books are really graphically violent, profane, or x-rated. In other words, I tried Game of Thrones, and I loathed it. It was way too dark. Hallucinating that world was like living a nightmare.

Ugh.

Books like that are not on my reading list. But I love everything by Brandon Mull, Terry Pratchett, Marissa Meyer, Sarah J. Maas, Brandon Sanderson, Suzanne Collins (her Gregor series is lighter and more fun than Hunger Games, but just as gripping), Kiera Cass, Orson Scott Card... I could seriously go on and on. But I'll stop, because that would get boring real quick.

There are some non-fantasy books I enjoy as well. I loved Nancy Drew when I was growing up. There were several classics I read in school that I really liked. And, in college, I went through a thriller/suspense era where I mostly read Dean Koontz and a little bit of Stephen King.

But for the past ten years or so, I've become more and more genre-specific. I love worlds full of magic, crazy technology, weird rules, and battles of good vs. evil. I love it when an author can create a reality that I've never dreamed of before, and get me invested in the characters. I feel like it opens my mind to ideas I'd never have otherwise known.

And the hallucinations in my head are always so much better than anything Hollywood can come up with. That's not to say that I don't enjoy movies based on books - provided they're done right. But they never live up to the fantasy.

I will, however, be seeing Mockingjay Part 2 as soon as I possibly can. Those movies have, thankfully, been very true to the books - although Josh Hutcherson will never live up to the Peeta in my mind. ;)

I'm grateful for books, and for all the inspired people who write them! They truly have a gift.

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 22: God Rest Ye, Merry Cassandra

Sundays can be pretty exhausting. I love my calling, but there are always extra meetings happening either before or after church. Then there's choir, and while I would like to use my meetings as an excuse to not be in the choir (because they really do take up a chunk of my Sunday), our ward choir is so tiny. They really need all the help they can get. And it's fairly easy for me to pick up the songs. Ergo, I attend choir.

That means that some Sundays have me at church for about six hours.

Today was not one of those days, thankfully, but I did have to go to a rehearsal for a couple of hours after church. And in the few hours that Evie and I were home, we had to hide upstairs so as not to wake Ben. Keeping Evie, the dog, and myself quiet while Ben sleeps is draining in its own way.

By the time we got home from rehearsal, it was dinner time, and I was completely disinclined to cook anything. I was way too tired. Lucky for me, my family was willing to settle for grilled cheese and tomato soup.

I can always count on them to try to make my life easier. I'm very grateful for that.

But today what I'm especially grateful for is that Evie doesn't have school this week! We still have things to do, and we'll still need to keep extra quiet while Ben is sleeping during the day, BUT, I can sleep in every morning if I like!

Well, except Wednesday, when Evie has a doctor's appointment.

But otherwise, I don't have to set an alarm. And things have been so busy lately that I've definitely been lacking in the sleep department. It's going to feel amazing to sleep in.

Granted, for me, sleeping in means getting up at 8 instead of 6:30. But it still sounds absolutely fantastic.

Thank you, local school district, for giving the kids the whole week off! My tired brain and I salute you!

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 21: Parental Entities

I considered entitling this post, "The 'Rents are Due," as in "my parents are due for a shout-out," but I wasn't sure anyone would get it. So I went with "Parental Entities" instead, because it's fun to say.

I'll wait a minute while you try it out. Really enunciate those t's for proper effect.

Fun, right?

Me with my moste excellente parents on my wedding day!

So, today Ben and I did our first six-hour foster certification training. It was a beast. Six hours of any topic is pretty brutal, and with Ben at the end of his already long day (since he's working the night shift these days), he was exhausted. Which made him act cranky. Which came across as kind of rude. Which meant that I had to compensate by being unfailingly cheerful, even though I wanted to give Ben a look. 

Anyway, it was a long day. But well worth it if it helps us adopt our kiddos!

The thing I really realized from the class today was this: my parents are awesome. Ben's parents are also awesome. We've been seriously blessed in the parental department. And I stopped to recognize that today especially, because all the kids we heard about in our six-hour class all had parents at the far opposite end of the spectrum. That's why they're in foster care. That's why the parental rights of the birth parents are being terminated. These are some seriously terrible human beings, who have caused their innocent children unimaginable pain and suffering.

Ben's amazing parents with little Evie!

It's one of those things that makes it even harder when I think about my infertility. We're good people, and good parents, but we can't seem to have more children to save our lives. But people who use their children as ash trays, punching bags, and any other number of horrible things are perfectly fertile.

It really makes you realize how unfair life can be.

But, that being said, we have an opportunity now to save a couple of those anguished children, and bring them into a home where they'll be safe and loved. It's such a blessing. We have the chance to be the kind of parents these kids - heck, all the kids! - deserve.

We have the chance to be for them what our parents were for us. We get to be teachers, healers, therapists, nurses, chauffeurs, cooks, guidance counselors, companions, friends... good parents.

World's greatest parental entities

My parents were all of those things for me. And Ben's were for him. It's kind of funny, because when we compare notes from our childhoods, we had very different upbringings. Our parents' styles were definitely not the same. But we both knew we were loved. We knew our parents cared about us, and our thoughts, dreams, and achievements. We knew they wanted us to succeed. And we knew they wanted, more than anything, for us to be happy.

That's really the key to being a good parent. Love your kids, and help them grow up to become the best versions of themselves. Yes, that generally means laying down rules, giving your kids chores, teaching them responsibility. It's not mean to teach your children to work. It's a good thing to teach them humility, and help them learn to apologize. It's important to teach your kids that actions have consequences. It's necessary that they learn to be empathetic and kind, if they're truly to become their best selves.

Ben with his parents at his pilot training graduation dinner

Raising kids isn't easy. They're a lot of work, and we have such a responsibility to do a good job. You have to watch everything you say and do, to make sure that you're giving them the best example possible. You need to be aware of how your words and actions will be interpreted. You have to give your kids room to develop their own personalities, and to learn who they are, while still giving them structure.

I could go on and on. It's a tough job, being a parent. Sometimes you really begin to understand why some animals eat their own young... But then your kids give you a hug, or do one of those great laughs that only tiny kids are capable of, or say, "I love you." And you remember why it's so worth it.

Ben and I have had wonderful examples in our own parents. They really helped us see the best way to raise our own children. They raised us with so much love, patience, and kindness. We were both so incredibly blessed to have such fantastic parents.

Thank you, Mom(s) and Dad(s), for helping us be our best. I hope we can do our own kids as much good as you all did for us. :)

Also: fantastic grandparents!

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 20: Bananas Foster(ing)

Today we had our second set of home study interviews for our foster-adoption. Our case worker, Elizabeth, is amazing. She's very open and friendly, and definitely gives us the sense that she's on our side. She even brought us cookies from Honolulu Cookie Co., which we had when Ben and I were in Hawaii and they are amazing.

Elizabeth is such a wonderful person, and has put us completely at ease from day one.

And that's such an important thing. Adoption is always a little scary, and I'd imagine that foster care adoption is even more so. If nothing else, there's an unfortunate stigma attached to the kids, because they come from such painful backgrounds. The kind of trauma these kids endure in their early years can certainly leave a scar. So a lot of people are afraid to adopt a child from foster care.

I've seen firsthand how amazing foster kids can be, however. I've been blessed to know several families who have adopted through the foster system, and those kids have turned out so beautifully. With a loving, devoted family, it's amazing how resilient children can be. I have all the faith in the world that whatever children we adopt will be able to grow up to be healthy, happy, and well-adjusted.

That doesn't mean that it'll be a piece of cake, of course. There's going to be a lot of hard work throughout this process. And yes, every kid is hard work in one way or another, and I'm confident we'll be able to face it. But I can see how so many people find the idea of foster-adoption intimidating.

And I'm not going to lie, we've had our intimidated moments ourselves, beginning with the enormous stack of paperwork we had to fill out before we could move forward with the process. Then, of course, we have to do background checks, fingerprinting, get a TB test, do first aid and CPR training, take two six-hour Saturday classes, put together a photo book, fill out more paperwork, get our home up to code, and do all the home study interviews and inspections.

It's okay, we're all a little mad here...

And that's before we ever see any kids. The whole thing is kind of bananas.

We're blessed to be working with an amazing agency, however, as well as our fantastic case worker, Elizabeth. Everyone we've talked to and worked with through the agency has been incredibly helpful. They never get frustrated with the number of questions we have, or the countless emails I send. They're honest with us about how tough this process (and adjusting post-adoption) can be, but they're also encouraging. They won't just be with us through the adoption, either. They've said we can contact them anytime we need help, even after everything is finalized.

They genuinely care about kids, and the families who take them in. They sincerely want us to succeed, and they're willing to help us do it.

It makes the whole process so much easier. We'd thought about adopting through foster care in the past, but it seemed overwhelming. We didn't even know where to start. This agency, though, seriously walks us through every step of the process. It's okay that we don't know it all, because they do, and they're here to help.

I'm so grateful for these amazing people who are helping us grow our family. I'm grateful for everything they've done for us, and for the kids we're going to adopt. I'm grateful that they are there when these little ones need them, to save them from a terrible situation and find them a family who will love them as they deserve.

And I'm thankful we decided to go ahead with this foster-adoption process. No matter how crazy it may be
from time to time, I get the feeling it's going to be one of the best decisions we've ever made.

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 19: Practicing My Craft

I'm not a very crafty person. My abilities pretty much just extend to napkin illustrations and costume makeup. If led very carefully though step-by-step instructions, I can make other things, like wooden pumpkins and thankful turkeys.

I've been trying to sew a little here and there, but I'm pretty much making it all up as I go along. I mostly just do it when it's necessary for a costume. I always have big plans to try other things, but I never seem to find the time.

I'm very grateful for my sewing machine and other craft supplies, however. Whenever occasion does rise that I need to make something, I usually can manage with the supplies I have!

This afternoon, we realized that tomorrow is Pilgrim Day at Evie's school. I was thinking she might want to just skip it, since we have literally nothing that would work for a pilgrim costume in a pinch, but she's dedicated to keeping her title as the Queen of Spirit Days.

So, since we were out and about anyway, we popped into Walmart and found a simple black dress and some white fabric. I spent less than $10 on the costume, which seemed pretty reasonable.

It only took me about an hour to whip up an apron and a pilgrim collar for her to wear with her black dress tomorrow. I didn't bother with a bonnet, though, mostly because I wouldn't even know where to begin with something like that. She's just going to have to make do with the floral pioneer bonnet she got in Nauvoo a couple of years ago.

Anyway, those of you who actually know something about sewing will probably say that it took way too long for such a basic project. Especially since I didn't even hem the collar. But, given my lack of prowess in the crafting arena, I feel pretty good about it!

I'm doing the stereotypical mom thing - whipping up a costume the night before - and I'm actually not failing miserably!

I'll post pictures on Facebook tomorrow, once she's in her costume. For tonight, I'm just grateful I didn't have to let my little girl down.

Reign on, Spirit Queen.

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 18: Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch

There's no denying that Ben and I are very different people. I'm extroverted, he's introverted. I'm emotional, he's logical. I talk all the time (even when I'm alone), and he rarely talks at all.

That being said, we go together like cheese and sprinkles. He's the yin to my yang. Yang to my yin? I'm not sure, but in any case, he makes me a more complete person.

And in spite of our severely different personalities, we have an absurd amount of things in common, too. We read all the same kinds of books, enjoy the same kinds of movies and TV shows (for the most part), and listen to the same kinds of music (although Ben's taste in music is more varied than mine). We both quote movies in regular conversation, and were theater geeks in high school. We both enjoy ballroom dance. We have similar ideas on how to be a good parent, and how to be a good human being. We both sing and enjoy performing for other people.

It's kind of crazy how we're so different and so similar at the same time.

I think a lot of what makes us work as a couple is that we communicate. We listen to each other, and try to understand the other's point of view. We're willing to try new things together. We try to compromise. We always apologize when we do something wrong or stupid or hurtful. Ben is always willing to step outside his comfort zone to do things I want to do, and I'm always willing to give the things he wants to do a chance. 

What we really strive for, is to always put each other first. When both people in the relationship are selfless and really trying to make their partner happy, things tend to work out.


I'm really grateful that Ben and I both understand that, and that we actively work to put each other first. Because, as any married person can tell you, marriage isn't easy. It is hard work. But it's important to remember that the other person is worth it. Remember that you chose them, and they chose you. Keep making that choice every day.

I choose you, Ben. Even on the days that you drive me crazy, I choose you.

Thank you for choosing me back. :)

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 17: Do Unto Others

Right now, I'm grateful for people who have the courage to speak out for what's right.

There's been a lot of fear and distrust from a lot of people concerning the Syrian refugees coming to the country. People are panicking at the idea that terrorists could be sneaking through our borders with the refugees. Their solution is to close our borders and refuse to help any of them.

To me, though, the need to help these people far outweighs the risks. If you look at it realistically, yes, there's probably a percentage of the refugees who are dangerous people. But it's probably a similar percentage to the number of dangerous people we have here in the US already. We don't spend all our time freaking out that our neighbors might be serial killers or rapists. We know it's unlikely, so we assume they're probably decent people. Why can't we extend that same courtesy to the refugees coming into our neighborhoods?

Because that's what the recent (local) panic is all about. The people in my neighborhood found out that we're one of the places slated to house refugees. And now there's talk of pulling kids out of the schools and homeschooling them. People are considering scoping out the local Walgreens so they can track the refugees and keep an eye on them. My neighbors are assuming the worst, and defending it with comments like, "It would be foolish to assume they're innocent people without having further information."

But couldn't the same thing be said of anyone? The odds are basically the same. You could have that attitude about all of your neighbors! It would be cynical, and probably exhausting, but you could do it.

People typically don't, though. They only assume the worst about these refugees because of where they come from, because of their heritage, and because of the color of their skin. Could there be terrorists mixed in with the refugees? Of course. There could be murderers, and rapists, and thieves, too. Is it an absolute certainty, or even a high risk? No. Chances are, the vast majority are people in a desperate situation, in genuine need of real help. Chances are, there are just as many decent, innocent people among the refugees as there are already living in our neighborhood.

Honestly, there's as much risk that someone in our community will be a danger to them, as there is the other way around. More, probably, since they'd only be a minuscule percentage of the population here, and tensions are running high among the "natives." But I doubt they're spreading as much distrust and fear of us as we are of them.

So it bothers me that so many people are assuming the worst. These refugees have lived through things most of us can't even imagine. Their road has been incredibly difficult, and the last thing they need is to be surrounded by fear and hatred when they haven't done anything wrong.

Should people be vigilant, and keep an eye out for sketchy or suspicious behavior? Sure. But they should be looking at everyone in the neighborhood, not just those who've recently come here from the Middle East. Any time you see something that doesn't seem right, you should pay attention. You never know when you might save a life. But there's no reason to be distrustful and suspicious when no one has done anything to warrant it.

Empathy is a much healthier emotion to cling to than hate.

I wish I had the courage to say these things on the community page. But people are enjoying their fear-mongering and panic. If I said anything, it would fall on deaf ears. Those who would listen are the ones who already agree with me. And the others would dog pile on me with snide comments and petty insults. I hate contention. Am I a coward? Probably. I certainly know how to pick my battles. It just doesn't seem worth it, especially when there are already a few other people eloquently arguing what I feel.

But I do appreciate the few who are defending the refugees. I'm grateful for the ones who are showing empathy, and refusing to jump to baseless conclusions. They have my support in the ongoing debate, even if it's from behind the scenes.

And to any refugees who are placed here in my neighborhood, I hope you feel safe and welcomed.

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 16: It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood

I looooove that the weather is finally cooling off! Temps in the 50s and 60s are my favorite. I've already busted out the long sleeves, jackets, and boots. And I can actually wear them comfortably because the air is cool enough! Huzzah!

I got to take Evie and her friend to the playground today. It was chilly, but beautiful. The girls had a great time, and I got to sit in the great outdoors and finish reading my book.

We got to do the same thing last week, with other kids and moms there to share in the fun. The kids got to expend their energy and use their imaginations, while the moms chatted. And, as any mother knows, the time spent shooting the breeze with other adults is always treasured.

I do hope that we have a nice rainy winter, to help ease the drought here in California, but these beautiful sunny days are definitely a gift, too. :)

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 15: Renaissance Woman?

I'm grateful for my talents.

I sing!

Some of them are of the more obvious variety. I sing, I play the piano, I can act, and I do ballroom dance.

I'm a strong reader, a good swimmer, and an adequate writer.

I'm pretty good at buying gifts for people, I'm not bad at hair and makeup, and I take decent pictures.

In some ways, I'm a bit of a jack-of-all-trades, master of none. That was my biggest problem in college, when I didn't get into the major I wanted. I'm fairly good at a lot of things, but I only excel at a few. So I had no idea what to major in when my first choice fell through.

I swim!

It probably doesn't help that a lot of my talents are fairly useless.

For example. I'm pretty good at making up ridiculous songs, right on the spot. I was playing Werewolf with some of my Young Women back in October, and they decided the setting of the game should be in a musical. As the narrator, that meant I had to sing everything. I definitely didn't keep it up well for the entire game, but for the first ten to fifteen minutes, I was coming up with impromptu songs left and right. And they even had actual melodies! And the words rhymed!

I do nasally New York-based accents!

I've also got a good ear for accents, and I'm not bad at mimicking them. I also have a bit of a gift for doing lots of different kinds of voices, like a voice-over actor or an audiobook narrator (which, coincidentally, are both things I've actually done. But not since I was in middle school and living in London) (Also, both of those things would be absolute dream jobs for me, not even kidding). Evie loves it when I read out loud to her, because my characters all have their own, distinct voices and accents. Are the accents super legit? Maybe not. But they're not too shabby.

I do crazy makeup!

I also have a mind like a steel trap when it comes to movie quotes. I can plug them into all kinds of random situations throughout the day. Too often the response is a dumbfounded look from the people nearby, but I do it anyway. I'm actually not sure I can help it. My husband and daughter are the same way, so really, it's not a habit I'll be breaking anytime soon.

BUT, if you look at these talents I have... really, what good are they? Yes, I can be a fairly entertaining person as a result of these quirky "talents," but they're not exactly important life skills. I doubt I'll ever find myself in a life-or-death situation where a movie quote or an impromptu song and dance can save a life.

Well, unless the Goblin King ever steals my brother, and I need to remember the line, "You have no power over me," in order to get him back.

I take way too many pictures!

Seriously, Jennifer Connolly, it's not that hard a line to remember.

Even though my talents are a bit useless, they still make life awfully fun. I mean, I could have a really useful talent, like being a natural at math and engineering, but then I'd have to be an engineer or something. How terribly dull.

I'm really quite happy with the random talents I have. They make life interesting! And honestly, I'm used to them at this point.

I fear change, and shall keep my bushes.

I'm not too shabby with Star Wars-themed Photoshop, either. :)

Thanksgiving Countdown, Day 14: Friday the Thirteenth

Friday the thirteenth is famously supposed to be an unlucky day, when terrible things happen. Of course, it's pure superstition, like how breaking a mirror causes seven years of bad luck.

And for most of the world, yesterday was no exception. It was a normal day for most, above average for some, perhaps unlucky for a few.


But in Paris, it was an unusually, unfairly, unimaginably dark day.

In much the same spirit of the 9/11 attacks here in the USA, terrorists spread fear and chaos throughout the beautiful city of Paris.

They attacked multiple locations, leaving the whole city reeling. I'm sure no one felt safe, even those hidden away in their own homes.

And although the death toll was not on the same scale as 9/11, the apparent randomness of the targeted locations no doubt left people feeling just as terrified. Would they or one of their loved ones find themselves in the wrong place at the wrong time? Would they be next?

Terrorists work through fear. They attempt to make innocent people feel unsafe in their own cities and homes. They strive to make people feel helpless, and hopeless, and weak. They want the people they attack to be too afraid to fight back.

You would think that the terrorists would have learned by now that those tactics don't work on us.

France supported us on 9/11

Are we shaken by these events? Of course.

Do we fear for ourselves and those we love? Absolutely.

Do our hearts break for those killed, injured, and grieving? Without a doubt.

But will we ever lay ourselves down and surrender?

NEVER.

When we in the United States were attacked fourteen years ago, we were wounded. We were shocked. Our hearts were broken. But we rebuilt them stronger than ever, and we bonded as a nation. We fought back, harder than we ever had before. We refused to lie down and die.

And the world stood behind us. They had our backs.


Now it's our turn to do the same for France.

I was so touched to see how our country, and others of France's allies, made their support known. They held press conferences, offering aid and support. They flew flags and lit buildings with the French colors. The internet was flooded with thoughts of love, support, and prayer for our brothers and sisters in Paris.

We stand united with France.

And I know they'll come back from this, stronger than ever before. The terrorists didn't win anything yesterday. Not any battle, and certainly not the war. All they did was paint a huge target on their own backs.

I'm grateful for the support we were shown by the rest of the world on 9/11. And I'm grateful that we can now return the favor to those suffering in Paris. I'm grateful that the world is full of pretty decent people, who look at events like these and say, "This will not stand."

I'm grateful for the strength of the human spirit. I'm grateful that we can not only recover from blows like these, but we can come back stronger than ever.

San Francisco supports Paris

I stand with you, France, even if it means my husband has to be gone more often, to do his part in bringing justice to those who have harmed your people on your own soil. These atrocities will not be brushed aside or forgotten.

You're in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers.